God doesn't sideline us

God doesn't sideline us, we sideline ourselves

"We can only do God's work through our own brokenness."

Today's blog entry is on a personal journey, as much as I want to avoid speaking about it, I think that it is needed to put out the things that is inside of my spirit. As a poet I have come to understand my words is needed because there is someone out there dealing with similar situations.
This morning as I was talking to my employer and we converse in conversation about God and how we ended up where we are right now.
I do understand his concerns wanting to know is it ever going to get better, emotionally, physically and mentally. I myself have had a similar journey that I have walked. They say that only when you have walked that road you can talk about it.

 My memories took me back to 2010 when an ex and her new love have created a trap for me and I was so stubborn filled with anger and hate because they have done me wrong in the worst possible way. This ex broke my heart, that was probably the worst hurt. But as it ended up I lost my self respect for myself creating ways to avenge yet each time I fell in the trap of the enemy.
Even in 2011 another ex and new love again a similar situation and I fell yet again in the trap of this woman that orchestrated the events that happened that i ended up losing more than just my cool, I lost so much more.
I was telling my fellow spiritual sister that if only I knew to have listened to God when he spoke to me and told me to stop. I was a newborn..the thing about newborns we are out of control we run around like mad people running around because we want a quick fix.
Then only a year later I saw how different things could have been.


Author Anita Lustrea was the guest on Focus On The Family and encouraged listeners to be intentional about creating a community of deep relationships, free from the secrets and barriers that lead to isolation. She then shared a prayer for women who are struggling that Sonny set to music. Please click the link to listen and share with anyone you feel may need it.

http://www.fln.org/afternoon-show-blog/have-faith-a-prayer/