A Soul Rescued

Matthew 5:11-12
“Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. 12 Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.”

I've seen the dreams of who I wanted to be vanished into thin air. My entire life mapped out into something that I never thought I'll become. Devastation and frustrated over the years that I've seen slipping me by as a stillness of earth shattering convictions took over and settled into my soul.

Everything I've dreamed off was taken away or perhaps it was always there waiting for me patiently as the clock and the hands of time keep moving along. I saw my life being taken over by malicious acts of something that wasn't me. A life gone under as I start falling for people that made me feel good for a second, for a minute. Those lost minutes I can never get back all I can do is break lose from the bondage of other souls holding tight to my soul,
As the binding of theirs kept on holding. It's this time that I've given up on my own dreams on my visions. I gave up on me as one day I broke lose from bondage as these words starts to play.
"To fulfil divine purpose, you gotta answer when you're called
so don't be afraid to face the world against all odds."

The visions that can change the world trapped inside an ordinary girl. She looks just like me, too afraid to dream out loud."

It may seem simple, but it seems so hard to grasp beyond what you believe in. Her mind was over clouded in the depths of what others asked of her. She lost who she was.

But then she heard these words swept through the air and she stood still and listened.

"And though it's simple your idea, it won't make sense to everybody. You need courage now, if you're gonna persevere.
So don't be afraid to face the world against all odds.

Keep the dream alive don't let it die

If something deep inside keeps inspiring you to try, don't stop

And never give up, don't ever give up on you

Don't give up."

Those words just knock the girl over as tears starts to fall from her eyes. She was on bended knee, as her hand was lift up to the sky. She kept her one hand on her heart as the words starts to become more emotional to the girls soul.

"Every victory comes in time, work today to change tomorrow
It gets easier, who’s to say that you can’t fly
Every step you take you get, closer to your destination
You can feel it now, don’t you know you're almost there? "

The girl starts to realize that this song was meant for her. That every obstacle, every storm and challenge she's been through, is the highlight of this exact moment. She can either live in self pity and give up on her and accept defeat or she can actually rise above this, all that's been keeping her bondage for so many years.
"I want to be free." She shouted to the heavens.
"God give me your peace, silence my mind and heart." She cries out.

The song played out, this was it, and her chance to become the person God always knew she can be. She can let go of all her pain and anguish. She asked forgiveness laying it all upon God's shoulders to carry her burdens for. It wasn't an easy thing for her to do, but she had an experience with the Holy Spirit.

"Sometimes life can place a stumbling block in your way
But you're gotta keep the faith, bring what's deep inside your heart
to the light
and never give up don’t ever give up on you.

The answer that can solve a mystery
The key that can unlock your understanding
It's all inside of you, you have everything you need yeahhhh

Sooooo, keep the dream alive don't let it die
If something deep inside, keeps inspiring you to try don't stop
And never give up, don't ever give up on you."

It was like the lyrics says, never give up, but most of all never give up on you.
Never let someone destroy your joy, your visions or dreams. Let those who want to take you down. Leave them in the hands of God. Don't evict evil with evil it would just damage your soul. So much has been taken from me. All the things I've thought were good and that could never be broken. My relationships with people they tell me one story and turn against me. People wear mask that can show a smile, but deep down evil is brooding inside.

My soul was connected to earthly things, I've asked my God to break all ties and give me back what's mine, to restore all hurts done by me and by others and giving my a soul that's wants again pure and not bruised by the hands of another.

A Challenged given by Leo - "Write on paper what you would write if you were to not think twice before putting the words on paper."

Valentine's Day ~ 14 February 2012

"Love"

Today I write about "Love"

The words that's been on most of our lips and minds in February.

Some of us go out of our way to make this one-day in February memorable for their partner.

You know I've realized not just now, but before I started to celebrate this day with people I've loved.

I'd go out of my way to make someone else's day epic, do the whole flowers, chocolates and dinner the whole Valentine's Day celebration.

But that doesn't proof anything to me about what Valentines Day says about love.

Does Valentine or St. Valentine was about a guy who lost his life due to someone he truly loved.  A tragic fateful love story.

Love to me is someone who loves me not for what I can do, but for the love I have for him or her.

Yet that too also doesn’t proof much.

It’s two years ago I wrote this poem about love.

Then I went to search deeper, I wanted to know what God says about love. Until I came across one of my best scriptures in the book of Corinthians chapter 13.

"4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres.

 8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. "

My own words love is kindness not just for one day on Valentines Day where we put out anger aside.

Love doesn't envy. No jealousy should be inside you. Its not boastful it holds no evil, it hasn't have an ego. Love should be equal, honorable, loyal, trustful, and respectful.

Love should be everything that comes out of you.

In securities isn't love.

Hatred isn't love.

Like they say there’s a thin line between love and hate.

Love should be gentle, freely given.

I believe love conquers all.

Why just show your loved one that she or he is loved on the 14th of February 2012, why not love yourself more each day so that when you with the one you love they'll know they are loved by you.

It will be in your eyes that glow that smile. Everything about them is love.

Love is universal, its something we all want in this life because without it we would feel that we lack something within us.

God is love. He loves us no matter our faults or mistakes.

Sometimes I wonder what if I do something wrong would my girlfriend forgive me. Will she accept that's who I am? And love me no matter what.

She might not, but I would know God's love is forever and infinity.

He loves me unconditionally that's why I love that scripture.

Ever wondered why at weddings after couples to be wed have this reading done.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres."

Like the song by Brandon Heath, Love Never Fails.

Love is not proud

Love does not boast

Love after all

Matters the most

Love does not run

Love does not hide

Love does not keep

Locked inside

Love is the river that flows through

Love never fails you

Love will sustain

Love will provide

Love will not cease

At the end of time

Love will protect

Love always hopes

Love still believes

When you don't

Love is the arms that are holding you

Love never fails you

When my heart won't make a sound

When I can't turn back around

When the sky is falling down

Nothing is greater than this

Greater than this

Love is right here

Love is alive

Love is the way

The truth the life

Love is the river than flows through

Love is the arms that are holding you

Love is the place you will fly to

Love never fails you

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Love is out there; all you have to do is open your heart to the possibility of it.

It’s free as a bird, no price to pay.

If God's loves for us are free. Why should we have one day in our lives to tell our loved ones that we love them? "I Love You" once I said those words I held it true.

Universally today is about love. Enjoy it, embrace it and no matter if you far or near from your loved ones today just know you're in their thoughts. Those fighting for the safety of their countrymen, those working far away. Even those close by.

To all my followers, bloggers, friends, family.

Have a blessed and happy Valentine's Day.

God Bless

So Sick Of Lovesongs

There is always that one feeling that never goes away, and I keep asking myself why do I love you still. You are inside of my conscious each day and night.
What I am feeling doesnt really even matter anymore. I search endlessly my whole life to be with someone that understands me and connect with on a level of understanding.
I never knew falling in love could hurt this much. Whne you not even with the person anymore. Knowing they out there somewhere being with another. When we broke up in February just after Valentines Day, I knew at that moment we did the best thing to seperate, but i didnt expect it would last 8 months later for me finally break down and feel that heartbreak like it was fresh.

It's like the pieces that was slowly stitching together has fallen apart yet again. Torturing myself of all that once was you. I want to run so far away from the grip you have on my heart. The reasoning yet I cant completely understand the why, why do people come into ourlives, why do we fall in love, why do we even consider giving our hearts out to someone who in some way you thought were your soulmate that you two were destined to be together. I just cant grasp what I am feeling on one hand I hate what I am feeling for you and the next I still try to fit you in my life, but then I also can't do that because I cant not have you be apart of my life knowing there isnt going to be a you and me.

"One love isn't all
consuming, but one
heartbreak can be."
~Tigress Luv, The
Break Up Guru

"Trust me, no past love is as wonderful as a broken heart may make them out to be."

I don't think that a heart can feel this much pain. I end up writing stories and poetry just to release what is left inside, there is so much that i feel that I dont know how to move it out the way. I keep wandering off to who we once were, what we once had.
I am lost and alone and I don't know, I guess I should let this fall of my back. Gosh it hurts so much I dont know how to live without you.

"Those who have never gone through a breakup have never truly grown as a person. They spend their days in a complete whiteout, not knowing how to feel their soul, touch the sky, or hear the spirit whisper in the wind. Only through a broken heart do we blossom into fragrant flowers with the infinite wisdom of a sage and an omniscient spirit in perfect balance with all-creation."

Checking your rearview mirror once in a while helps you get a clearer sense of where you are at, but when you look in your rearview mirror too long, you're bound to miss what's coming up in front of you.

Are you staring at the walls in your room with sighs of grief? Listening to depressing music with quick reflections of regret and longing? Heartbreak can be very painful, I mean I am living through it for all this time, another woman cant take that ache away, have I overcome the crushing reality of a fading romance it fabricated self destruction.
Love is complicating and the dynamics of caring for someone else is staggering.
When we broke up I asked myself these questions? What doesn't she love me back? What happened to us, where did I go wrong and what more could I have done to make her realise that we could do this, that distance shouldn't be the only reason to break up.
I still love her. But eventually I knew this was something I have to work on to get through but let me tell you, heart break is a dark experience. I had to distract myself from going insane and had to do drastic measures, disconnect myself from all connections that I've had with her, because laying around and repeating all the WHAT IF'S took a toll on me emotionally.

How I wanted her to wait for me and to come back  and be with her living our dream. The painful reality was when i saw she has moved on with another girl.The minute I have heard this news it was like a bulging pain seeping through my lower body.
It's like dejavu has hit me back to 2010 reminding me that you have been through this exact stage last year, even though you have been working through the pain of that relationship ending, here the one girl you knew loved you with everything in her has now found someone else. She tells me that she wants someone that cares about her that gives her that attention. She tells me i neglect her. But only if she knew what I was dealing with and that I was working on getting my life back together.
Maybe this is God's way of putting her with someone else that isnt me. Yet it hurts like hell.

There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try and talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.
And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's over.

If you are willing to trust in a person when all others tell you to go against it, if you are willing to risk getting your heart broken because you believe in that other person. Then that is true love.
Isnt this what true love is, did we have true love, were she meant to be my soulmate i dont know its something I cant answer because the more pain I feel from her out of my life the deeper the scar at the end of the day.

Finding true love is hard enough, but to throw that love away just because you thought it was easier to walk away from them instead you let go and walk around with your head down facing the road you're walking. Lying around your house thinking just maybe she is better off, but what if there was some way that you could've gotten over that hurt and try again. I believe in love but the fact that it hurts even more when you are face with the loneliness.

I might have walked away, but I didnt walk away with my heart I left it with her. She carries it with her since we departed.
Life is so short you know, living with the fear of loving again, guarding your heart from the people or person you love the most. I can't deny my love for her, its inevitable, that she is my soul mate. So many time has passed but my love and I know her love for me is constant.

Have you ever looked at your phone in that sense thinking I wonder how she is, what she is doing. Why cant she love me back in that way we once had. What made her stop feeling for me. I thought she would wait for our forever. Is this where it all should end, where we both go our sperate ways. Why cant I accept this that she isnt mine anymore that I am not her only one, the only woman she wants to be with.
I miss her emails, her text. Her face her smile. Gosh i miss her and only her can complete me.
yet i should let her go.

There is a quote that goes, If they don't return they were never yours to start with.
Forever & Always
Bunny

Words I Couldn’t Say

Words I Couldn’t Say 6/10/2011

There’s a box in my cupboard filled with all of you

You’re pictures scattered around me as I stare at

Them endlessly, I am so far lost that I’m hoping

For the words I couldn’t say then.

In a book in a box, in a line of a song

I hear the words over and over.

But never the words I couldn’t say.

The words leave my lips as I whisper your name.

Silence all around me as I sit on my front porch

Hoping that somewhere the stars I’m sleeping

Under will let you know I am thinking of you.

The words was there on the tip of my tongue,

There was you, and me but that’s all gone,

No back up plan, no second chance and no one else to blame.

I’m left with silence only hearing my own breathing

At night, no words to comfort me,

Nothing it’s all lost and I can’t blame anyone,

Words I couldn’t say.

Lost in a world where there is no second chances,

There is water pouring down from the sky,

Yet it’s all falling down on me,

There’s a wall I try to take down,

What I should have said is lost and gone.

Words I couldn’t say.

Words that I should’ve said just couldn’t

Pass my lips, now here we are and I’m too late.

All I can hear is the footsteps of your heart passing me by.

I should have found a way to tell you

How I really felt then,

Now I am telling all those things to myself.

What do I do now, its too late I can’t blame anyone,

There is nothing that remains

But the silence.

Because of the words I couldn’t say.

© Chimnese Davids, All rights reserved.


This poem was inspired by my favorite band Rascal Flats and the song Words I Couldn't Say.

Thursday Poets Rally Week 54 (October 20-26, 2011)