Don’t Pull Your Love Away

It’s like having all the pieces fitted

In the palm of your hands,

The long awaited urges

You encouraged yourself

To the grown that it would never happen.

You watch the person you surely

Without any doubt know

Is the one for you?

But you can’t have it all.

You can never seem to get to the happy ever after.

Your unbroken heart that you have healed over

The years, filling that empty spot

They once held in your heart.

You kept that place for them

That hopefully one day

You will mature enough

To say, “I Love You”

But you never thought about the effect

That love would have upon that person.

What would they do?

Would they accept or would they run.

You told yourself you wont run anymore.

But deep down you never expect them

To do it.

Don’t pull your love away from me.

I guess I never should have said anything.

I shouldn’t have open my mouth

And take my feelings with me to my grave.

But my heart wanted to let it out.

At least now I know where I stand.

That the love, the connection

We once shared aren’t available anymore.

There was too much pain between us.

To many memories filled with anger.

How could I expect that you would still love me?

At least I always thought that if one day

I get to see you again.

Il hold onto you and never let go,

But this time it’s the other way around.

Its time for me to close that door completely.

And braise myself for one day

Having you as my best friend again.

If I can’t have you, Il rather have you as my friend.

© Chimnese Davids, All rights reserved.

The Lyrics

I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side. I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No

I found this song and it accompanied me just to think long an dhard about love, sometimes we love someone, but sometimes that love just aint enough for them to be with you.

I hope you all enjoy the song its definitely a deep one.

The Only Way I Know How To Feel

I am lost in a world full anger and despair.

If you let me fall,

First kill me so I wont have to feel the pain.

I’m so lost in this grief

That you faked all this time.

I don’t know how to feel

Because I am so used to the pain.

Take me for granted, make me feel used.

The only way I know how to feel.

Is pain inflicted by your actions?

You’re a pathological liar.

I thought you were real,

But all along you were just using me

For your revenge.

Leave me to pieces

Because I have learnt to deal with the pain.

Nothing seems real not even the

Life I thought I was a part of.

Six months my world was based upon a lie.

Take me for granted, make me feel used.

Because that’s the only way I know how to feel.

I hope one day I will break out of this daze.

Maybe this just is my twisted fate.

For months I always felt everything was wrong.

And I don’t know where I belong.

Take me for granted, make me feel used.

You have poisoned my brain,

Washed me out and spill me out.

I’m suffocating from regret all that wasted hours spend.

Believing I was never meant

To touch you face of something real.

Take me for granted, make me feel used.

Because it’s the only way I know how to feel.

I Won't Let You Go

This poem I wrote on the 5 July 2011. It was inspired by the song of Rascall Flats. I remember i was watching the last show of Oprah where they sand this song, and the words couldnt leave me as it played on going in my mind. It was also the same time someone very close to my heart has been going through a hard time. She was very special to me and this is the poem i wrote for her.

I Won't Let You Go

As I'm writing these words.
I'm tearing up as I'm watching.
The person I love suffer from.
Slight amnesia after losing her last
Relative, it hurts my heart to see her
Like this.
We all have storms,
We all go through the dark passages,
But know this,
You're not alone in this.
There's my shoulder,
There's my hand hold onto it.
There's hope for us all,
Honey it hurts me so much,
But it finds us all,
We try to stop the rain,
But when it does rain it pours.
But,I won't let you drown.
This time I'm jumping into
That ocean of blue,
To reel out my hand,
Because I will stand by you.
I won't let you go.
It's an ache that's gonna be
Inside you right now.
I won't let you go,
I will stand by you I'll fight with you.
You're lost and feel alone,
But you're not alone.
I'm gonna stand by you,
I'll dry your eyes,
Make it all go away,
You won't fall not while I'm
Here too catch you.
You're gonna make it,
Because I'm gonna stand by you.
And help you through.
I'll never let you go.

5/7/2011

Skillet - Whispers in the dark (Official Music Video HD) Subtitles Engli...

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is
Just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses

I will be the one that's gonna find you
I will be the one that's gonna guide you
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark


What Do You Hide Behind Your Eyes

Your eyes hide pain and sorrow. Maybe you keep things to yourself, to pervent worry or concern from your friends and family. Your tears are only seen by you and you plan to keep it that way. The only place you cry is when you are alone. Maybe you feel lost... or alone. If you do feel lost or alone, you are not the only one who feels that way. I feel like that everyday, because I am so misunderstood. People may not be understanding you right now, because you may not have them the complete story or you are talking to the wrong people. i know it is hard, but make them listen for once. I did that and things were better for a while. PS: If you feel alone, go to Youtube and type in Whispers In The Dark. It is a song from Skillet, but it is a really good song. It is also best if you listen to the offical music video. Tell me if you like the song please.

Never Meant To Hurt U, Its Just How I am

I get so busty and I shut you out
And You don't have a clue what that's about
You're probably thinking that I'm getting mad at you
I should take the time to just explain
That you're the only thing that keeps me sane
Cause that would really be the kindest thing to do
Even though there's no one who is closer to my heart
I can see that I have kept you in the dark

Sometimes I forget
Sometimes I don't think
To show the things I feel and to tell you what I mean
But There is not a day
That ever passes by
That I don't thank god
That I've got you in my life
If you have any doubts of what my love is about
I just wanted you to know

I wouldn't blame you if you turned away
But I'd be begging you to stop and stay
You're more important to me than I ever show
So if you're thinking I don't care as much
That I don't appreciate your love
Well I'd be devastated if you let me go
Oh I hate to think I didn't give you the attention you deserved
So I'm hoping now that you believe these words

Sometimes I forget
Sometimes I don't think
To show the things I feel and to tell you what I mean
But There is not a day
That ever passes by
That I don't thank god
That I've got you in my life
If you have any doubts of what my love is about
I just wanted you to know

I just wanted you to know
I just wanted you to feel what I feel for you
I just wanted you to know

Sometimes I forget
Sometimes I don't think
To show the things I feel and to tell you what I mean
But There is not a day
That ever passes by
That I don't thank god
That I've got you in my life
If you have any doubts of what my love is about
I just wanted you to know




lastnight i was listening to this song, and i usually listened to it, but not a while since yesterday, after you said, i sometimes dont think what it does to you when all i keep doing is pushing you away, that isnt what i was doing, i was just trying to get better, to get through the pain and i know its wrong, that we in this together, but how do i change that, ive tried for months...
I wouldn't blame you if you turned away
i really wouldnt......but i wish you wudnt...

I get so busty and I shut you out
And You don't have a clue what that's about
You're probably thinking that I'm getting mad at you
I should take the time to just explain

i tried to reach out, but i am just designed to be alone, not holding onto someone who cant stand my ways. i can't change i have tried, but just know i did miss you every night as i look at your picture...

There is a light shining, i just gotta find it...

They can say,
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,
And they can try
How to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to falter in what I believe or loose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's,
There's a light in me,
That shines brightly,
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me
From me

No no nooo

Oh they,
They can do
Anything they want to you,
If you let them in,
But they won't ever win,
If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside,
See I,
I have learned,
There's an inner peace I own,
Something in my soul that they can not possess
So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

'Cause there's,
There's light in me me,
That shines brightly, yes
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me

No oh oh,
They can't take this
Precious love I'll always have inside me,
Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

Woah, woah
They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Although they do try,
How to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or loose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly yes

They can try but they can't take that away from
Me
From me
No no nooo
Me


Lastnight as i was typing away on my keyboard, i pulled up a playlist of the most depressing songs to fill my mind and trying to recoop my emotions, of the feelings of emptiness and like the world has taken alot from me, and as i came to switch my playlist to a difrent set of songs, this song appear in it, i turned up the volume onto my Ipod as i let these words fill me...as i was listening tears formed into my eyes, as my fingers couldnt stop from typing, it was like a force letting out the words to the screen..

Then i came to this parts and it was really sumtin i needed to make me realise that i can get over this dark cloud that is hanging over me..

They can do
Anything they want to you,
If you let them in,
But they won't ever win

This is what that means to me, they can try, people that is out to hurt you, they can try, they can think they have won, but they dont...but it all depends on you to not give them the power over you.


They can't take this
Precious love I'll always have inside me,
Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go
there is something bigger then human bondage, God, his guidance over your heart and soul..

They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Although they do try,
How to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or loose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,

when trouble came to my life, i wanted to give it all up...  I was down and just wanted to cut ties with everyone around me, that is what i ahve done, i am cutting myself off from the people who i know loves me, i ahve even thought of hurting myself because i just couldnt bare the pain that was filtering through my body. Suddenly i realized i was lonely, that i am vulnerable and shouldnt be alone, so last night i just kept listening to this songs all alone just pouring those words out...i thought about the times i couldnt walk or able to enjoy life, i thought about the people who is feeling exactly like me. I am still troubled, my heart is wandering and i want it to still, i asked God how do i do that, how can i be that person to feel like i am complete...i dont think another person can fill that place...i can be surrounded by many people yet deep down i am still alone and frightened of whtas next..
But at the end i am here, i am alive, i should be happy, because there is this light within me, and its only in your darkest hours you see this light shining through you..

That is what they cant take away from me. My strenght, my ability to overcome anything life throws in my path...this is a journey..

tears & emotions well up inside

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pY9b6jgbNyc

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

this song when i first heard it, it brought tears to my eyes, and four years later here i am again stuck on this song..thinking on how i am going to fix this..how i am going to be that person i know i can be without falling too pieces.
I listen to this song, every time I'm sad, every time I have these tears that-like the song says- are streaming down my face.
It reminds me the feeling when nothing goes right, when u think this is the end, that everything's wrong and u can't see the light.. For me its like when ur down, look at the facts, the past and ur past actions and review them.I think this has happened to so many people, cry when u don't want to but u can't avoid it..
When you can't do anything else, when you've tried your best but still things are not how you want them to be, don't give up but don't keep on it if its not the best.. maybe the best is to let it go and later you'll find out.

 I've learned from past mistakes and other's and I can say proudly that some things that I thought were so bad, weren't at the end of the day and I learned to trust in God and destiny when there's nothing left to do. I think this song is also about taking chances life gives us, don't stay there and wait for life to go, u have to take what life gives you and if you don't like it change it and turn it into something great. And at the end, when you do everything and still destiny is an unfair player, I'll be there for you, whenever you need me, I'll stay to fix you.