Connections
In the long journey I've travelled through times of
hardships and endure the sufferings of my actions.
I've come to know who I am in this journey and I've also been reflecting on things I've come to understand about the human race. That we are all connected through certain planes. It’s not just through bloodlines but its more than that it’s something supernatural.
It happened so that we as a being have many dimensions. I am not just a human with a flesh, but I have many dimensions and so the journey starts for me, that if I've moved 2years ago to Philippines I wouldn't have known my spiritual dimension. If I've never let go of my first and second relationships I wouldn't have known the depth of love for them and using that love not to break me as it did, but to use it as a basis to find out what's within me. Who am I?
In the last 2 years I've come face to face with many dimensions of my SELF. The broken vessel I once was, was holding me back from progressing in life, I held onto my previous relationships afraid that if I let go, I'd lose who I became while I was with them. Never knowing that I was taking something very valuable from myself. Firstly my happiness, my dreams, and my aspirations I was even taking away people from myself.
Then in 2011 those dimensions was attacked from within. My lack of self confidence, my personality, my character. The human flesh I've been trying to heal was a waste of time because I had too many hidden emotions that I couldn't connect to my soul and to the spiritual realm of my other dimension. The pure dimension that wasn't coming through.
I gave over to the flesh and my link to the spirit world disconnected.
In doing so my flesh feeding my mind that I need lots of people around me and that's how I'd be happy, that I must find relationships that I wouldn't have to deal with my own issues instead focus on these relationships so that I know I'll be needed and wanted and I'd receive all the applauses.
You know what I lied to myself thinking I had it all under control. I had the so called best relationships and they would love me forever and ever. Even though I did fall in love and I did want to move to Philippines and make that dream we've had of marriage and family. I came to only understand that my own plans wasn't full proof and my own desires won't come to pass if I'm in the flesh, three of my relationships ended up really bad for me, the last one used me so much that I believed the lie that this person fed my mind for 4 months.
That is where I started to realize that the flesh is harming me and I needed to go back not to who I was before I met them, but who I was when God first entered my life. It was that dimensions in the last year between 2011 and 2012 that was faced down on my face having to come face to face with my old version the many faces of that being and asking for forgiveness for His mercy.
My journey it was heavy, it was stormy it was raining thunder and lightning strike at me and that's when I knew if I don't take this as a sign I'd never know what it is to be healed or happy or to feel joy.
We are here in 2012 my journey; my dimensions of who I am came to be full circle. The healing started and if I didn't connect to the spiritual realm, to the universe I wouldn't have known Chimnese.
I have a book out a journey that I was able to walk with God. I believe that if I wasn't full made by His supernatural powers. If I've not let go of those people, relationships or groups of people I wouldn't have come to meet this dimension I am now. The people I know in my life now was meant to come in my life, and if I've held onto the people from the past I'd miss out on the beautiful connections I've met now.
We are all connected through the spiritual realm, we might not have met the other in person, but in other dimensions we have. Like the new people I've met on Sunday at my book launch, an instant connection happened because I didn't feel uneasy around these people. It was like in another dimension we've met, it was God ordained that's why. The whole journey was ordained by the most high. That if we acquire relationships that are man made it wouldn't be so powerful that your spirit feels at ease. When I feel that my spirit is comfortable that's when I know I am meant to be at this place at this exact moment in time. That I've travelled through planes and spaces to get to that pivotal moment in my life. Where I know like they say in Afrikaans, "dis vol bring" and it. Definitely is but I know that I am who I am because I've connected to the spirit of God and God's supernatural powers lives within us no matter who I was or where I came from, what matters is that you never let the flesh over take your life.
I'm still going to be travelling through my dimensions and planes and God my father, my spiritual growth will grow in stages.
I am on a journey and love me for all my imperfections. I'm loved and I'm happy and knowing that all this came together when one night I had the encounter in my bedroom with the most high father.
God is love.
I've come to know who I am in this journey and I've also been reflecting on things I've come to understand about the human race. That we are all connected through certain planes. It’s not just through bloodlines but its more than that it’s something supernatural.
It happened so that we as a being have many dimensions. I am not just a human with a flesh, but I have many dimensions and so the journey starts for me, that if I've moved 2years ago to Philippines I wouldn't have known my spiritual dimension. If I've never let go of my first and second relationships I wouldn't have known the depth of love for them and using that love not to break me as it did, but to use it as a basis to find out what's within me. Who am I?
In the last 2 years I've come face to face with many dimensions of my SELF. The broken vessel I once was, was holding me back from progressing in life, I held onto my previous relationships afraid that if I let go, I'd lose who I became while I was with them. Never knowing that I was taking something very valuable from myself. Firstly my happiness, my dreams, and my aspirations I was even taking away people from myself.
Then in 2011 those dimensions was attacked from within. My lack of self confidence, my personality, my character. The human flesh I've been trying to heal was a waste of time because I had too many hidden emotions that I couldn't connect to my soul and to the spiritual realm of my other dimension. The pure dimension that wasn't coming through.
I gave over to the flesh and my link to the spirit world disconnected.
In doing so my flesh feeding my mind that I need lots of people around me and that's how I'd be happy, that I must find relationships that I wouldn't have to deal with my own issues instead focus on these relationships so that I know I'll be needed and wanted and I'd receive all the applauses.
You know what I lied to myself thinking I had it all under control. I had the so called best relationships and they would love me forever and ever. Even though I did fall in love and I did want to move to Philippines and make that dream we've had of marriage and family. I came to only understand that my own plans wasn't full proof and my own desires won't come to pass if I'm in the flesh, three of my relationships ended up really bad for me, the last one used me so much that I believed the lie that this person fed my mind for 4 months.
That is where I started to realize that the flesh is harming me and I needed to go back not to who I was before I met them, but who I was when God first entered my life. It was that dimensions in the last year between 2011 and 2012 that was faced down on my face having to come face to face with my old version the many faces of that being and asking for forgiveness for His mercy.
My journey it was heavy, it was stormy it was raining thunder and lightning strike at me and that's when I knew if I don't take this as a sign I'd never know what it is to be healed or happy or to feel joy.
We are here in 2012 my journey; my dimensions of who I am came to be full circle. The healing started and if I didn't connect to the spiritual realm, to the universe I wouldn't have known Chimnese.
I have a book out a journey that I was able to walk with God. I believe that if I wasn't full made by His supernatural powers. If I've not let go of those people, relationships or groups of people I wouldn't have come to meet this dimension I am now. The people I know in my life now was meant to come in my life, and if I've held onto the people from the past I'd miss out on the beautiful connections I've met now.
We are all connected through the spiritual realm, we might not have met the other in person, but in other dimensions we have. Like the new people I've met on Sunday at my book launch, an instant connection happened because I didn't feel uneasy around these people. It was like in another dimension we've met, it was God ordained that's why. The whole journey was ordained by the most high. That if we acquire relationships that are man made it wouldn't be so powerful that your spirit feels at ease. When I feel that my spirit is comfortable that's when I know I am meant to be at this place at this exact moment in time. That I've travelled through planes and spaces to get to that pivotal moment in my life. Where I know like they say in Afrikaans, "dis vol bring" and it. Definitely is but I know that I am who I am because I've connected to the spirit of God and God's supernatural powers lives within us no matter who I was or where I came from, what matters is that you never let the flesh over take your life.
I'm still going to be travelling through my dimensions and planes and God my father, my spiritual growth will grow in stages.
I am on a journey and love me for all my imperfections. I'm loved and I'm happy and knowing that all this came together when one night I had the encounter in my bedroom with the most high father.
God is love.
