Our Destiny Part 2

letter 11

15 April 2012

Dearest Love

I had to continue this letter because I want you to have as much knowledge.

You know why this is why?

You keep me here. You can't live in  a world where you don't know where and what I am doing. We inside each others souls.

"Inevitably in twin soul connections we come up against the “dance” the connection and the disconnection between the two that is incredibly frustrating, and cannot be rushed.  We are dealing with a process here.  Within the connection  you often find that one party is very keen to move the relationship on to higher levels, whilst the other doesn’t know what the hell is going on and doesn't want to deal with the relationship, as it touches deep and painful emotions that may have been suppressed.  So they try and escape the relationship.  The latter of the pairing is often referred to as a “runner”.  The intensity of the connection means that each one feels the other's pain and confusion and there is much telepathic interchange.  Both are pulled around by the compulsion of the energy, and are connected by what seems like an electrical cord.   "

When I read that part about "the dance" and about the solid one and the runner. Bunny it was like watching us. The flash backs just hit me and I'm talking to God at that exact moment and saying God so this is why it happened. I just never understood it all, you see it fall into place. I knew in the back of my mind there's something way powerful that's working in us. Something only two people who's loved each other unconditionally.

I've pushed your love away and I've run from you, sometimes I've checked out, but this is the reason. I just couldn't understand what we have. I mean we have never met in real life, yet we've loved each other for over 3 years.

I remember  how you told me that you read my story, to think that was my first fanfic I let the world read, "Dearest Spencer" and you said to yourself , " I have to meet this girl." You also told me that you've loved me even then.
And I've known what you looked like before I even saw  a picture of you or  how about  how I described you exactly  how you looked I also knew about your singing. And  how people truly admire you. Then you asked me if I'm sure I've never met you or if I am really from South Africa. I was laughing. That's  how we were and  how we always will be. You always knew  how to make me feel okay. When I hear you like earlier on the phone just the sound of your voice puts my soul to rest. Knowing you're okay and save.

I hope that one day I'll meet you. Its frustrating not being with you and being so far away.

"  When a “runner” runs, they run.  But in time the “runner” finds themselves in a no-brain situation.  They are faced with the choice of living in pain from the separation from the twin soul, or returning and facing that deep love, working through their fears (often unfounded) of possible rejection and reaching their own personal Eden. "

"During the whole process the parties have to remain strong.  Twin soul connections never happen at convenient times.  There is often the matter of existing and committed relationships, money issues, and a whole million other practical and logical reasons why these two, on the surface shouldn’t get together.  There can be great differences in age, or religion or they may live continents apart.  Quite often one may be in an emotionally unfeeling, yet long term relationship, whilst the other is in a controlling and abusive one.  Both can feel trapped.  But never forget, Madam Destiny in her infinite wisdom and effort has gone through the whole process and trouble of bringing these two together, and twin soul connections are quite rare - if you look back on this process you will inevitably come across situations where the two "nearly" met up again, or they were in the same place at the same time, and didn't meet, or they were working close to each other and didn't meet, nearly buying a house in the same town, and didn't meet, until Destiny has chosen the exact timing for that meeting and bingo, it is done.  "

I'm unhappy with destiny she's always bringing us close then rip us apart at the oddest times.
Why did you have to end up in an unfeeling relationship and me who was in an controlling relationship, but I got out which was too late. What are the odds.

"Learning to have patience and not forcing the relationship is part of the twin soul process.  If you are trying to force your will onto the other person, chances are you’re not ready to really connect yourself.  There should be no blame here - only deep and unconditional love. "

The ending is what I take as my lesson, what is yours.
Bunny I'll love you for  a thousand years.
My love grows only deeper, but don't worry inside of my heart and my soul there's  a peaceful serenity. I've asked God to just help me and this is where we are. Two people who's meant to be, but destiny is holding our cards back for now until our next incarnation.

Yours forever
Sweet Pea