This has been a year full of miracles, I can't believe that when God said in January 2012, "Be the miracle" he definitely meant each word that he had been ministering to me, from where I have been to who I am right now, he did wonders.
last night I wrote this peom
Tear tracks
God in my silence I speak to you,
I'm reaching out for a way out
Of this pressure that's coming
Against me, but I know
That you are there for me
Through all the ups and downs
Through all the pain,
The suffering, the nights
I laid awake hoping
That if I wake tomorrow
That you going to be there
Reaching for my hand.
I would have lost my mind
If it had not been for you
To see me and looking
Inside of my soul,
Because of you, you carried
Me through my past,
I know I am stronger,
I am better, I've made it
Thus far and I know that
You're going to take me
To more places that I've
Not seen yet.
God I've been better
If I didn't have you by
My side I don't know
Where I'd be.
I'm stronger, I am wiser
When I look back
At what you brought me through
I'm so much better,
So much love that rise
From my soul.
Never could have made it.
I am happy with who I am right now, sometimes i feel pressurized by life and the day to day things i have to do, like work, my career as a published author, being there for my loved ones, I wonder the other day if God had plan for me to go through this without my special someone, in the depths of my heart i want to meet someone, someone that would be a blessing and a new hope , but then again i feel so much stronger on my own, like there is nothing that can stop me, i feel blessed in every parts of my life... My life, my testimony i hope it can help someone out there that is going through similar pains inside of them, that we are sometimes to hard on ourselves and don't give our selves enough credit, i am a good person i know that now that it wasn't my intention to hurt the ones i loved, but i hope even they can find there inner joy....
I walk upon this world not like an ordinary being, i feel like i am created by God to help the ones who can't i am not an eloquent speaker, but give me a book and a pen and i can complete the emotions that i am feeling that i can not convey in vocal....
Life happens and it can make you into a person you sometimes don't know...the person i was before i became healed was someone i couldn't bare living with, there were times i felt that who i am wasn't me that i felt for a long time out of place, but right now a year into my healing and my spiritual connection growing i finally came to know who i am as a person, i use to need people around me to tell me that i am a worthwhile, beautiful being, but ever since i started loving myself i now don't need outside forces to pat my beauty or telling me how i am...
I know that I am loved by God, my father and my friend he is everything to me...sometimes i do get to that point where my own plans once to enter but he slowly let me know that Chimnese, I am the father and I know the best plan for your life..
"Muses of wandering passions" is my life line, because God he is my life line, he made this book come out so that people all around the world can read it..
I love God and God is Love...
Link to "Muses of Wandering Passions"
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