Igniting the flame of love

Love Letter 4 

17 January 2012

Tonight silent tears have been falling. I don't know if you're out there if you can feel my heart crying out to you. I realized tonight that I lie to my own heart. That my world seems lonely without you.

I've tried to let go of this hope for someone that's my soul mate.

What kind of love letter is this if I don't even know whom I am writing for anymore?

Did you ever read the story of Eros and Psyche, its a Greek mythology they say its a legend. Their love was timeless.  A tragic love story. One falling deeply in love with someone you can't see.

Someone that's the epitome of your heart.

I remember the grudge Eros's mother had against Psyche. She was a beautiful princess her parents didn't know what to do anymore because everyone desired her, but nobody was suitable for her until one night after she has fallen asleep. Eros sneaked through her window disguising himself doing what his mother has asked of him to make Psyche fall in love with any ugly creature.

As Eros study the features of the women he suppose to shoot she rattled and he scratched himself on the shoulder with the golden arrow, its then Psyche awoken and looked straight into Eros' eyes and he was struck with desire for her. She might not have seen his body, but he has fallen in love with a mortal.

I don't know why I am telling you all this its not like you actually going to come across this letter. When I read this story I felt a sudden sadness as a lonely tear fell down my cheek.

Eros and Psyche was maybe a legend, but the love was real. Eros has a soul connection with her. And she was in love with a God.

There was always someone trying to break them apart. Just like with us. They've said that two souls that's meant to be will always be torn apart by others. Things will always come in their way.

As the story goes on, Psyche one night was told by her sister that Eros isn't real that his a serpent that would kill her.

It was this night Psyche listened to her sister and not her heart in her heart she knew that Eros wasn't going to hurt her, but she then had a oil lamp with her as she knew Eros was laying there beside her, he always said never to switch the light on he didn't want her to fear him. As they made love the oil lamp dropped onto his shoulder and that night the golden arrow scratched Psyche and she falls deeper in love with him also finding that they won't be able to live in a mortal world. He escaped from her room back to his palace.

She's been searching for him and couldn't find him.

She then asked for advice by another God and he sends her to Venus the mother of Cupid also named Eros.

What Venus couldn't understand is this that Psyche has passed every test she has set up for her.

Until Psyche wanted to die because that is the only way she would live eternally with Eros.

But then Eros came to her rescue and went to Zeus to give Psyche ambrosia water its then she became immortal and they've lived a happy life with their daughter.

This is what I call a tragic love. That she wanted to die to be with her one true love. I desire that I want that. Not the death part, but to be eternally in love with you.

I want true love; I want someone that's going to be my best friend and also my true love, my soul mate. The kind of person that wouldn't mind if I disturb them, that want to hear from me anytime. Someone that would enjoy smiling with me. Just holding hands and even in the silence they can sit on the front porch and be content with me.

 A love that can inspire me, someone that I can share all my dreams with. The one I want next to me when my first book gets published. You would be enough for me. Just you and me. That's what I want. I don't have to just settle, but be loved and wanted in return.

Gosh even though I know you're out there dreaming of a life with me. I wish I can reach you in my dreams and tell you how much you mean to me.  How much love I have for you.

I've been crying tonight. I am crying because I don't know if you'll ever want to be with me like I want you.

 Baby just knows this isn't my last letter. Because I won't stop writing until you see that you are my forever love.

Yours Forever Love