If You Say

....if i say i am a writer,
....if i say i am a girlfriend of someone,
....if i say i am a daughter,
....if i say i am someone's godmother,
....if i say i love someone

i know you might be confuse with all these if i say...but i am just ranting on what is inside of me right now, at this moment in time...but all those if's is who i am...i am all thos ethings and so much more.

i love to write, its my passion, i think writing saves me from destruction,but i hope since lastnight all that is a thing of a pass, right now i am planning on uprooting my life here in Cape Town, to a beautiful island name Manilla, Phillipines, so in the coming year their are many things besides writing to get settled.

i have never been to any places in this world, never been in a plane, idk anything about the world then what i read about....so that is why i am taking this chance..this risk like my friend told me on Sunday..chim do it, i did once and i wish i never came back home..so yes that is what i am planning to do, moving my life to another country with no expectance, or yes i do expect something, but like someone once told me, the grass isnt any greener abroad...well that is what i want to find out..so i am planning on all this the end of Dec 2011....

i would want to go and visit my sister in Seattle one day..at one time i was planning on Alabama...but that is a whole other thing, actually a thing of the past...

the wonders seize to amaze me yet..

i love this peom from BV

“When I say, "I love you," it's not because I want you or because I can't have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength. I've seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are. You're a hell of a woman.”
Spike to Buffy

so i guess that has got nothing to do with my entry...but i just liked it and threw it in here... makes sense if you read it....i do have someone special in my life....a great girl...and i think i might be crazy about her..she is my muse.