A black and white day

A black and white day

I don’t know much that is going on,

But I have this feeling it always comes on a day like this,

A Friday where everything seem black and white

I ask myself what is this I feel

Why can’t you just feel what I feel?

Do you love me if you don’t let me go?

“I can’t let you. You too important to me”, she says.

“But if I am then why cant you love me.

Love me like I know you want to.” I said.

I stood there in front of her; I could see the tears falling down her face.

My own tears were falling making a smudge with my make up.

I don’t always where them,

But only for today I wanted to be beautiful for her.

I hear her say, “You beautiful.” I want to say thank you.

I want to say just hold me.

Just for once.

Don’t let us fall apart,

Don’t give up on me.

But I could say was nothing…

A long sigh came out of her.

“I will always love you no matter who is in my life,

I will love you still.” Then it dawned on me.

How could she really love me?

If she did.

Why am I not enough?

Why am I not worth being with her?

Is this what this day has become,

As a wind start to pick up blowing the tree I was leaning against now.

Its then I saw the cloud become grey,

 A very dark grey.

It won’t belong until rain will come.

I am sure it will, even though it’s a black and white Friday.

A day that could bring so much pain to my heart.

I know that I won’t be able to walk away from her,

That I will still go on loving her for years to come.

It was a year later I was standing at that same tree.

The same day a black and white Friday,

My emotions never changed, my heart never stopped

From loving her.

All I could hear was the wind blowing and in the distance I still

Believe that I can hear her say,” I still love you forever and always.”

Copyright C Davids 25/11/2011

Credit goes to : One Poet Notes :

Photo Friday: “Black (& White) Friday”

Poetry Picnic week #17 “Photos, Nostalgia, Memories, and Families”,

HourGlass



Hour Glass

My life is like the hourglass

As the sand pass through

The narrowness

Of life

That is what my life has become.

It’s a life with a lot

Of chaos happening,

But through the passing of times,

I discovered that there were times

God has walked with me,

When I didn’t notice the

Time passing me by,

They say that these are the days of our lives,

We don’t live in soapy world

A world of fictional time.

But reality shakes me from my dreams,

When death came and take away

My loved ones,

I realized at some point,

My tears have dried up.

Another time God has wiped my tears.

When life gave me illness,

I realized that the pain

Has gone away,

That was when prayers

Were done and God came

And healed my pain.

Time is so important in our lives,

Sometimes we get distracted,

But always know,

That God deserves our full attention.

Copyright C Davids

This is my entry for Short Story Slam Week#15

Letting Go of Unavailable People

Letting Go of Unavailable People

I have been trying to figure out

Why I cant let go of you,

Why I am always drawn to coming back

Knowing that we haven’t had a successful

Relationship, but then it dwelled on me why?

You and I are both unavailable beings,

We consume ourselves with the same things,

Emotionally we are drawn to each other

On a powerful energetic level.

That is why we have this strong connection

Towards each other the near fact of either

Of us don’t want to let go,

Yet we are emotionally driven

To stay bounded to the other.

You have this hold onto me

And I have this emotional hold onto you.

We have an inner radar system that

Keeps us compacted with the other

On an emotionally intimate level.

We both had broken childhoods

And we walk around with those wounds,

I thought if I help you,

We might have a better chance at our forever.

But we have kept each other behind as well,

I don’t know the circumstances your in now.

“The reason that we get involved with people who are unavailable,

 Is because we are unavailable.”

I love you I truly know that I do in my heart,

But it is not possible to love someone

Enough to get them to stop feeling.

We have to stop that delusion,

Even though you are with someone else.

And I know that you shouldn’t even be,

With anyone because you feel that emptiness

Inside of you that has been missing since

You were a child,

I wish you could focus more on healing

Yourself on the inside

And understanding and healing the

Emotional wounds that have driven

Us to pick people who could not give

 us what we want emotionally.

I am letting go of you, not because

I don’t love you, but because I think

We both know you are holding onto

People with the fears that is still

Stuck deep within your soul.

Until then we will both be ready

For something with someone that

Is available for us.

Letting go doesn’t mean I don’t love you,

It means that I will always be here for you.

Copyright C Davids 16/11/2011

Thursday Poets’ Rally Week 56  (November 17-November 23, 2011)

obession

its just my instinct

feelings that erupt inside

my heart where you lay

by

Chimnese Davids

Haiku Heights - Prompt #94 - Obsession



Finding Feather On Your Path

Finding Feather On Your Path

She wore the symbolic feather,

Most said it was a figment of her imagination.

Yet it stood written in the book

of philosophy that she would

Wear the symbolic feather.

but she is the messenger.

She was chosen before birth,

She wears her faith proudly,

And purity never unwavering,

She stands tall in her truth.

They call her one of the many fables

As she was destined to lead,

And bring forth peace to all,

So how can anyone say?

It's in her imagination

When we all know that the

Symbolic of all faith starts

With finding a feather on your path.

Theme: Poetry Picnic Week 12: Feathers, Fidelity, Figment, and Fables 

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