Today's Devotion- Thankfulness

I am thankful for what God has given me in the last six months. How he had change me from within, even when there were storms that I had to face in my own life and having to lean on GOD for my strength and for giving me a future, a life...This passover is my first year at my recovery. I celebrate life to the fullest since I have been given a second chance. God had remove people from my life and at that stage of my life I wasn't able to understand it all, but now I do. Because He had showed me how to love myself first when others couldn't. To be happy & content with who I am. To realize that it depends on me to get better to persevere and to live out my dreams that God had placed inside my heart. I started to declare on my own life, prophesying and believing that God has a purpose for me. A plan for my life not to hurt me or to let me down, but to raise me up from the depths of the pain & suffering.

Galatians 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

Jeremiah 33:6 "'Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security.

Our everyday life is a challenge, a pursuit to get to the next level of your spirituality, of the dimensions we travel as we go deeper within ourselves and in finding our highest self. The true me came to the light, from the surface of the place I have hid who I was because of fear of being vulnerable to the world I am living in. I am still striving to find myself and with each storm, test and obstacle life had put on my path, I came to see who I am as a person, friend and a lover. Who I am as a daughter, a cousin, friend even sister. I declare goodness over my relationship, my finance and my home and my family. Finding love after all this time and being loved back. My whole life I was trying to fit in, but all along it took just to look up to the sky hearing God's voice saying you are loved, needed, and above all you are special to so many, but most importantly that I came to be secure within my own soul, and heart and knowing I can Trust God to always show me the right path and never to give up on myself and those I love. God is my first love and having Him being the center of my universe I know I can't go wrong in life.

Rain & disorientation

rain wash over me and pour my sorrow out of me..........disorientated today...feel like i am standing in this rain that is currently falling washing over me as i drown in the droplets falling from heaven...remembering how we use to play in the rain...whilst people thought we were crazy to be standing in the rain...looking up above...the rain was our thing...it was cleansing us from the world's waste...you were my best friend...now I am just a girl watching through an open window from a first story building as the water falls down the pavement onto the parking lot... I can see all the flashbacks of moments in the rain...playing and chasing one another......that is what we had, we had fun together....i was always serious about life & my career, but you came & teach me something else, something I have forgotten since growing up and being independent was all I ever knew......I stopped having fun years ago...but then you entered my life & you showed me how to have fun again...how to laugh, how to be me in a world that always want to change me.....sigh...I can just wonder with a smile on my lips that for awhile I'll always have the fun times we had.....how the gardens became ours...how we'd sat & talk for hours not caring about the time...how people would stare at us weird, yet we wouldn't be bothered...you had teach me a lot of things how to be free and finally how to come out of my hiding & believe me it's challenging, but I know I can do this next step of my life...last night I couldn't sleep & I went & Google something about the universe & most of those pages I have opened up didn't satisfy my research I am not even sure why I actually did Google the universe, but for some reason God works through the web sphere & I came across a very informative piece & as I read it I saw my own situation I find myself in...Karma & Relationships...

This topic, extracted from Farley Malorrus' shows on June 4, 1987, August 12, 1987 and September 19, 1988, covered various aspects on the subject of Karma and relationships.

Consider that the Universe is a reflection of the self. As the self is the Universe, the Universe is the self. Meaning; that whatever you are as an individual, you can really understand what you have in your life by taking a look around you. For instance, the home, city and environment you live in, your career, neighbors, friends, family, and even the bum that lives in the park across the street. Everyone in your life is literally a reflection of the self. Also, if you feel that your life is a mess, or that you're going to die, and most things in your life are negative, scary and freaking you out, then you need to do some deep Soul searching. This aspect of Metaphysics is Karma because we create that part of our own Universe which becomes immediately sensitized by us. Which means that everything in your life is a reflection of you.

I have learned to become happier when I have learned to enjoy my solitude. The love that lies within my breast and plugs into the people all over the planet, instead of having to go out and find the people, I can feel them in my own apartment or right here in the control room. If I could share that vibration with you I think you could find the true key to happiness. You could plug into that God-force inside yourself that I am talking about.

Karma

 “It doesn't have to be on Valentine's Day. It doesn't have to be by the time you turn eighteen or thirty-three or fifty-nine. It doesn't have to conform to whatever is usual. It doesn't have to be kismet at once, or rhapsody by the third date.
It just has to be. In time. In place. In spirit.
It just has to be.”
― David Levithan

“Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at the moment.”

I am resetting the things of my past lives. Everything negative that I have ever utter out my mouth about what I am not deserving for where relationships is concern I denounce the negativity & release every past relationship that I have had, I bless them with good fortune, love and abundance that they will reach the desires of their hearts.

“If you send out goodness from yourself, or if you share that which is happy or good within you, it will all come back to you multiplied ten thousand times. In the kingdom of love there is no competition; there is no possessiveness or control. The more love you give away, the more love you will have.”

I am sending good vibrations out into the universe as she is the only one that could find me my true mate. I want someone that would love me for who I am and accept me for the unique woman I am... I don't ask much of them, but to be honest with you and always to involve you with life choices...
If you are out there and the universe allow you to hear my words. 

I want to love you, to be the one that you can always count on no matter what. I don't just want to be your lover, but also your best friend. I want to grow old with you, raise a family with you. Just love me for what you see beyond the surface..We both are right now in a place that hasn't set us free from all the past had done to us, but today I am releasing the past and hoping my soul mate will come find me.. I am waiting for you, however long it takes, I hope our meeting will be soon as the spiritual realm would shift us and we meet at a place. A place we both would be at the exact moment as you would turn around you would see me and your face would light up, if I see this vision of you just by writing this then I know that God will allow us to meet at the specific time...

You will ask me something and I will answer you on that question.. It be the day where serendipity will bring us together I have a feeling we have maybe met already, but it wasn't ready for us to be with each other for us to meet, but now I know I will meet you on some day that our lives would have molded us for that moment.

  Love can happen at any moment and I am free from all my past relationships and the people I have been with..My heart will be open to find love once again...

Destiny & Fate
  “I told you. You don't love someone because of their looks or their clothes or their car. You love them because they sing a song only your heart can understand.”
― L.J. Smith

 “What's meant to be will always find a way”
― Trisha Yearwood

 “I wonder how many people don't get the one they want, but end up with the one they're supposed to be with.”
― Fannie Flagg

 “Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

 “Sometimes life has a cruel sense of humor, giving you the thing you always wanted at the worst time possible.”
― Lisa Kleypas

 “Sometimes the slightest things change the directions of our lives, the merest breath of a circumstance, a random moment that connects like a meteorite striking the earth. Lives have swiveled and changed direction on the strength of a chance remark.”
― Bryce Courtenay

 “Have you ever noticed that when your mind is awakened or drawn to someone new, that person's name suddenly pops up everywhere you go? My friend Sophie calls it coincidence, and Mr. Simpless, my parson friend, calls it Grace. He thinks that if one cares deeply about someone or something new one throws a kind of energy out into the world, and "fruitfulness" is drawn in. ”

 The universe is no narrow thing and the order within it is not constrained by any latitude in its conception to repeat what exists in one part in any other part. Even in this world more things exist without our knowledge than with it and the order in creation which you see is that which you have put there, like a string in a maze, so that you shall not lose your way. For existence has its own order and that no man's mind can compass, that mind itself being but a fact among others.”

Just walk closer to me and come find me...
From your future wife.....  :D

 “Even chance meetings are the result of karma… Things in life are fated by our previous lives. That even in the smallest events there’s no such thing as coincidence.”

Connections

In the long journey I've travelled through times of hardships and endure the sufferings of my actions.
I've come to know who I am in this journey and I've also been reflecting on things I've come to understand about the human race. That we are all connected through certain planes. It’s not just through bloodlines but its more than that it’s something supernatural.
It happened so that we as a being have many dimensions. I am not just a human with a flesh, but I have many dimensions and so the journey starts for me, that if I've moved 2years ago to Philippines I wouldn't have known my spiritual dimension. If I've never let go of my first and second relationships I wouldn't have known the depth of love for them and using that love not to break me as it did, but to use it as a basis to find out what's within me. Who am I?
In the last 2 years I've come face to face with many dimensions of my SELF. The broken vessel I once was, was holding me back from progressing in life, I held onto my previous relationships afraid that if I let go, I'd lose who I became while I was with them. Never knowing that I was taking something very valuable from myself. Firstly my happiness, my dreams, and my aspirations I was even taking away people from myself.
Then in 2011 those dimensions was attacked from within. My lack of self confidence, my personality, my character. The human flesh I've been trying to heal was a waste of time because I had too many hidden emotions that I couldn't connect to my soul and to the spiritual realm of my other dimension. The pure dimension that wasn't coming through.
I gave over to the flesh and my link to the spirit world disconnected.
In doing so my flesh feeding my mind that I need lots of people around me and that's how I'd be happy, that I must find relationships that I wouldn't have to deal with my own issues instead focus on these relationships so that I know I'll be needed and wanted and I'd receive all the applauses.
You know what I lied to myself thinking I had it all under control. I had the so called best relationships and they would love me forever and ever. Even though I did fall in love and I did want to move to Philippines and make that dream we've had of marriage and family. I came to only understand that my own plans wasn't full proof and my own desires won't come to pass if I'm in the flesh, three of my relationships ended up really bad for me, the last one used me so much that I believed the lie that this person  fed my mind for 4 months.
That is where I started to realize that the flesh is harming me and I needed to go back not to who I was before I met them, but who I was when God first entered my life. It was that dimensions in the last year between 2011 and 2012 that was faced down on my face having to come face to face with my old version the many faces of that being and asking for forgiveness for His mercy.
My journey it was heavy, it was stormy it was raining thunder and lightning strike at me and that's when I knew if I don't take this  as a sign I'd never know what it is to be healed or happy or to feel joy.
We are here in 2012 my journey; my dimensions of who I am came to be full circle. The healing started and if I didn't connect to the spiritual realm, to the universe I wouldn't have known Chimnese.
I have a book out a journey that I was able to walk with God. I believe that if I wasn't full made by His supernatural powers. If I've not let go of those people, relationships or groups of people I wouldn't have come to meet this dimension I am now. The people I know in my life now was meant to come in my life, and if I've held onto the people from the past I'd miss out on the beautiful connections I've met now.
We are all connected through the spiritual realm, we might not have met the other in person, but in other dimensions we have. Like the new people I've met on Sunday at my book launch, an instant connection happened because I didn't feel uneasy around these people. It was like in another dimension we've met, it was God ordained that's why. The whole journey was ordained by the most high. That if we acquire relationships that are man made it wouldn't be so powerful that your spirit feels at ease. When I feel that my spirit is comfortable that's when I know I am meant to be at this place at this exact moment in time. That I've travelled through planes and spaces to get to that pivotal moment in my life. Where I know like they say in Afrikaans, "dis vol bring" and it. Definitely is but I know that I am who I am because I've connected to the spirit of God and God's supernatural powers lives within us no matter who I was or where I came from, what matters is that you never let the flesh over take your life.
I'm still going to be travelling through my dimensions and planes and God my father, my spiritual growth will grow in stages.
I am on a journey and love me for all my imperfections. I'm loved and I'm happy and knowing that all this came together when one night I had the encounter in my bedroom with the most high father.
God is love.